except that i let go a looooong time ago having to have the perfect christmas. the decorations just right. the holiday correspondence with the cute family photograph all addressed and written and ready to go out in the post. (excuse me, but we got a christmas card on nov 30!! who is that organized??) and on. and on. and on…
last year i attended an advent retreat. i didn't think i could afford the time, but i did it, and i was so glad i went.
i'm going again this year, and i'm really looking forward to just slipping my holiday self into neutral as i coast into a lovely weekend with lovely women all focusing on what this holiday season is all about.
so i'm going to sit. and be. and watch and wait.
be patient as i wait for Him to breathe His presence into my heart.
because that's pretty hard for him to do when i'm a whirling dervish of martha-ness flailing about. nothing is impossible for God, but it helps so much when i slow down to make room.
so my cookies will wait.
my home-made chex mix will wait.
my wrapping will wait.
my christmas cards will wait (and probably be late, but oh well).
but my heart will be right.
and the fact that i'm recovering from a massive kidney infection has made it slightly easier for me to slow down.
so enjoy your weekend. i'm going to bask in His glory all weekend long. i can't wait (although advent is all about waiting after all…) to see what He has to say.