post it note tuesday

thanks to supahmommy for this fun way to spend a tuesday. visit superstikkies to make your own post its! directions are simple (if i can do it, anyone can!) and play along yourself!

seriously…

it began on thursday afternoon when i got word that school would be closing an hour early due to snow. not that it really matters to me, since i no longer have children in school.

except there wasn't any snow.

not even a flake in the sky.

seriously?

closing early because of no-snow? seriously?

yep. seriously. as in a heart attack.

i thought it rather hysterical of everyone, and went about the rest of my day.

about noonish, a few random flakes began to fall (or as they say in the south, "spitting snow") and within three hours, all hell broke loose.

over 1.5 inches of snow.

i. kid. you. not.

seriously?

the city closed a major bridge downtown because of the icy conditions.

traffic was at a 5 mph crawl in most areas and there were more wrecks than could be counted by 4:30.

seriously?

i had a meeting at 2, then another at 3:15, and i'm happy to say i was on my way home by 4, because SERIOUSLY it was not fun to be out driving/crawling in that icy, slushy mix.

of course school was called off on friday.

and believe it or not, after receiving nary a flake over the weekend, school opened one hour late today.

chalk it up to windy, twisty roads, sub-freezing temps, and no snow removal on the side streets. but really, in all honesty, who would bother to remove 1.5 inches of snow? the main streets were fine by 6 pm on thursday nite, but the side streets were ice and snow and after the first day, breeding grounds for black ice. with a lunch tray, you could have improvised a lovely luge down the street in front of my house.

if i hadn't seen it with my bare eyes, i wouldn't have believed it. all because of a little over an inch of snow. for as much news coverage this one got, i guess it'll go down in the annals as "the great blizzard of 20-X"

heart I.V.

after a really blueish day where there was something off and swirly that i couldn't quite put my finger on, i went to our youth group at church (where the hubster and i are sophomore leaders) and as soon as worship began, i realized, i need a heart IV.

i've been in a dry and weary land and have been stumbling around like some sort of hallucinagenic homeless person {not that there's anything wrong with that}. the music began, and the words began to wash over me, and it was like a waterfall of HIM that just soothed my aching soul and filled me up, little by little.

As I Am

Here I am, all of me

Here I am, at your feet

Here I am, saying that I need you again

Here I am, I’m tired

Here I am, distracted

Here I am, coming to your feet anyway

I need You to meet me once again

I need You to fill this void within

I need You to hear this heart of mine

I need You…

Here I am, I’m broken

Here I am, so weary

Here I am, tattered by this life’s demands

Here I am, I’m hungry

Here I am, I’m thirsty

Here I am, wanting so much more of you

You’re everything I’ve needed

And you’re everything I’ve wanted

And you’re everything I’ve dreamed of

You’re everything to me

why do i insist on wandering in the dessert when there is an ocean of Him right at my fingertips?? seriously??

gah.

pride.

i wish it was true: you're everything i've wanted. you're everything to me…

if i weren't so interested in me…

maybe i could be this person. who hungers and thirsts after the Lord like my very life depended on it…

man. i love worship music. it's the I.V. that connects directly to my soul. my spiritual central line. His word is the fluid in my I.V.

ahhhhhh…

breathe

there's alot swirling around our midst these days. changes, challenges and chills. sorry. not to obsess with the cold, but i think a full two-thirds of the country is chattering right now.

i have thoughts roaming around this expansive head of mine (not gonna call it cavernously empty, mind you…) some of it melancholy, some of it hopeful, some of it humorous, some of it just beige.

it's all swirling around and i can't seem to make heads or tails of it.

sort of like a revolving door. spinning and then something spits out of it.

like how quiet my house is right now.

and then i go back to how much work i have to do and why i'm trolling around on my dumb blog.

spinning and spinning…

why do i write? and what does it matter?

i'm worried about government health care…

spinning…

boy wonder is on his way home from skiing and i'm so thankful that he survived two ski trips with his knees intact. thank you sweet, merciful Jesus!

spinning…

thinking about people i've met in the land of blogs who are dealing with so much pain and lonliness and hurt…

and then people who are so creative it makes my retinas bleed and my brain swell. and turn a little green. (i ain't gonna lie)

so i'll just continue to revolve here in my cold little town in my warm little home snuggled up in my little slanket (it's not a snuggie, but a snuggie of sorts. only furry. and yummy. and not garishly blue).

hopefully my brain will stop spinning for a second and i can catch my breath.

addendum:

i like to think this is not me worrying… just my little unfocused brain and a desk that is full of stuff to do and a house full of christmas that needs to be put away and episodes of grey's anatomy to be watched (haha, i'm not serious about watcing, but they're there… calling…) and so much running around my head… i'm finding it a bit hard to focus. i can't put my finger on it. and then there was the moment in the car when i was talking to the hubster and it came around to our empty house, and i started to cry…

perhaps this is what is going on…

i don't know…

i just want to watch Elf and laugh at the part where buddy's playing in the revolving door like it's an amusement park ride…

post-it note tuesday. . .

thanks to my friend kimber, i have a new skill.

summing up my world in a post-it note. and better yet, there's a website dedicated to making your own. head on over and play along! so flippin cool!!

thanks to SupahMommy for hosting this party every tuesday. i'm hooked.

home sweet {empty} home

just returned from taking bama girl halfway back to school. her bf met us just inside the alabama state line {well, at least the first major "city" that has more than a run-down shell station at the exit} for lunch and we loaded up her bags {whatintheworld is she doing with five bags??} and her and sent her back to college.

we had a great visit over the break. very relaxing and capped off our time with a 12 hour marathon of one tree hill {although the girls managed to last for about 16 hours}. i can't believe i vegged on the couch {although i was there first with a migraine} all day to watch OTH. i'm sad to report i'm slightly addicted.

the hubster unplugged and took down lights outside. meh. i hate undoing christmas.

the bins are coming out of the attic {just as soon as the hubster thaws from being outside} and i'll be wrapping up and putting away.

oh to have the little elves do a tiny drive-by and put all our holiday stuff up. that would be awesome. i'll be happy to offer up some encouragement while i sit safely out of their way as i sip a little left over egg nog.

boy wonder left today for a ski trip to snowshoe with about 19 other kids from here. it's great to see him out and enjoying the things he loves to do. after having to spend the last two years on the sidelines because of two ACL tears, it's great that he is back in the saddle, so to speak. but this mother is struggling with worrying about him. he made it through skiing and snow mobiling in michigan unscathed. i'm sure he'll do fine in west virginia, too. i know it's not right to worry. {but i do} so i shall pray for him instead of wringing my hands.

as soon as he returns on wednesday, he'll be quickly gathering his things and heading back to school.

and then we'll be empty nesters…

for real this time.

*sigh*

mrs. clean

mrs. clean…

i'm not.

we've got company coming over tonite. and my kitchen (which is white) needed some serious triage. gah.

as did the whole house. double gah.

we're having seared tuna steaks with some sort of rice business (haven't decided yet) and green beans almondine. probably do some bread, and our guest is bringing the salad.

i'm in the middle of making cookies and cleaning and trying to decide how to hang picture frames for a project on my wall.

and my dumb dachshund is barking in the garage (lower level) when i'm right here in the kitchen where there's a perfectly functional door. i'm just sayin'…

oh, and i need a shower. calgon… take me away??