heart I.V.

after a really blueish day where there was something off and swirly that i couldn't quite put my finger on, i went to our youth group at church (where the hubster and i are sophomore leaders) and as soon as worship began, i realized, i need a heart IV.

i've been in a dry and weary land and have been stumbling around like some sort of hallucinagenic homeless person {not that there's anything wrong with that}. the music began, and the words began to wash over me, and it was like a waterfall of HIM that just soothed my aching soul and filled me up, little by little.

As I Am

Here I am, all of me

Here I am, at your feet

Here I am, saying that I need you again

Here I am, I’m tired

Here I am, distracted

Here I am, coming to your feet anyway

I need You to meet me once again

I need You to fill this void within

I need You to hear this heart of mine

I need You…

Here I am, I’m broken

Here I am, so weary

Here I am, tattered by this life’s demands

Here I am, I’m hungry

Here I am, I’m thirsty

Here I am, wanting so much more of you

You’re everything I’ve needed

And you’re everything I’ve wanted

And you’re everything I’ve dreamed of

You’re everything to me

why do i insist on wandering in the dessert when there is an ocean of Him right at my fingertips?? seriously??

gah.

pride.

i wish it was true: you're everything i've wanted. you're everything to me…

if i weren't so interested in me…

maybe i could be this person. who hungers and thirsts after the Lord like my very life depended on it…

man. i love worship music. it's the I.V. that connects directly to my soul. my spiritual central line. His word is the fluid in my I.V.

ahhhhhh…