i am sitting here, late(ish) on a wednesday nite, after our youth group, and after a late dinner with the hubs.
i have no idea where this is going. . .
or why i'm here late on a wednesday nite, other than i know tomorrow is going to be gone before i can get a hold of it. i just know that right now before tomorrow even begins. because my calendar tomorrow is full, full, full.
we're (and by we, i mean me. the hubster. the biz) in the middle of a merger and it's exciting and frightening all at the same time.
and it's causing some friction between me and the hubs.
the long work days, the pressure of new people in our business and just all the uncertainties with that have caused nerves to be jangled and emotions to be a bit raw, and things to be said that maybe we don't really mean.
or maybe we do.
sometimes it sucks bigtime to work with your spouse.
like big time.
is it wrong for me not to want to spend every waking moment talking work? like at breakfast (other than our morning devotions that are such an important beginning of my day, but one ended up in a performance evaluation, and that, frankly, sucked) or numerous times during the day on the phone, and then through dinner and into the evening?
i'm excited about the changes. and the fact that we get to continue to BE in business… really i am.
but as a wife, i'm also trying to guard my heart and not be overly excited. is that wrong?
is that not honoring or unsupportive or just all wet-blankety?
or am i just tired?
i don't know. really.
it's been a tough couple of days.
and i don't really know what this is all about other than it matters.
i'm not sure how and why, but it does.
that is all.
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