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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

fully embracing

what began as a routine morning, has now escalated into an all-too familiar journey. i'm fully embracing the onslaught of another crushing headache.
i've been a chronic headache sufferer for the past 17 years. i've seen neurologists, chiropractors, orthopedists, general practicianors, janitors, plumbers, i don't know, i've seen everyone but a shrink, and i'm just thinking that's my next stop because these things are seriously driving me crazy.
did you know if you twitter about a migraine or a headache you'll be "followed" by a host of "people" trying to sell you headache remedies?? i pretty much have more than enough spam in my email inbox, must these people invade twitter as well?? it's enough to give me a headache!!
oh wait. i already have one.
i had scoliosis as a child (although it's not something you get over, i guess i still have scoliosis) and after being in and out of braces and body casts (can you see why me dating was never a thing my parents were worried about?) throughout middle and high school, i eventually had a full spinal fusion, complete with the harrington rod-car jacking maneuver they did on my vertebral column.
thank goodness for morphine. lots and lots of morphine.
but the remnants of that issue has resulted in a residual curve in my neck. and chronic headaches.
overall, i try not to let it get to me. and if i keep busy, i can almost forget i have a nagging, literal pain in my neck.
but other days, like today, i'm not so enjoying having my head attached to the rest of my body. i have a pretty high threshold of pain, and i'll endure. . . but i gotta wonder what my liver looks like after a fairly regular diet of excedrine migraine, naproxen, advil and extra strength tylenol. the big guns (imitrex, maxalt, etc) sometimes work, but at $25 a pop, it gives me a headache just thinking how we'll afford more!
but i'm not going to let a vice-grip on my cerebellum interfere with enjoying a gorgeous unseasonably dry/cool august (yes, i said august) day in tennessee. cool/dry, august and tennessee. never before seen in the same sentence. . . at least not without an "i wish we could have" attached to it.
seriously, it's been a spectacular summer.
and really, i'm kinda glad my head is attached to my body. . .


  1. I just had to make a copy of that joke. I am so sorry for your suffering. I can't imagine having headaches all the time. You poor thing.
    I will pray for you to have better days.

  2. I think I kind of understand what you are feeling - I get headaches quite often and have for many years (practically my whole life). I hope that you are feeling better soon.

    I was hopping from blog to blog when I found yours.


  3. I hope you feel better soon. I know how awful headaches can be!

  4. Honestly, I know my stomach issues aren't that bad compared to what a lot of people have to deal with. I admire you!

  5. oh dear. i am sorry about your chronic suffering.

  6. My husband has chronic back disease, has since he was in HS, and lives with pain everyday. My heart and prayers go out for you. Watching him deal with pain has caused a huge paradigm shift in me. I cannot imagine nor would even try to. I only hurt for his hurt, and now for yours.


  7. P.S. I have pretty good insurance, Rx's are only 5-10 a pop. Should I adopt you?

  8. I have migraines too - what a curse. They are terrible. I use Maxalt when they are bad and it works well for me.

    I hope it gets better!!

  9. I love that cartoon!

    A few years ago I suffered chronic spinal headaches after a blood patch to repair a hole left in my spinal cord from a procedure, went bad. It was awful. I just wanted to lay down in a black hole and not get up.

    I used Maxalt back then and it did an OK job, and I also used Toradol. Eventually I had another blood patch and that seemed to finally work. But it was bad in the interim. You have my sympathy and prayers....lots and lots of prayers.


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