five am and i'm awake

why is it that i am WIDE awake at 5 am… solving all the problems of the world, panicking that i've not assembled a team for a potential mission trip this summer, remembering that i need to make contact with our hosts for said trip, going over a list of all the things i must accomplish today at work… all the while, trying against all hope, to claim that last hour of sleep.
frustrated, i grab my kindle and read for thirty minutes… finally fall back into the deepest sleep just before the alarm goes off.
instead of awakening refreshed, i still have the heavy-duty-drool-stage-of-sleep fog enveloping my head and for the life of me, can't shake the cobwebs of sleep from my brain. where is the mind-on-overdrive of 5 am? i could certainly use you right about now.
i had six new blog posts already written in my head.
now?
i got nuthin.
well… i wouldn't say nothing… i do have amazing sunshine spilling across my work area in my office. i have two of the three dogs snoring nearby. there's something oddly comforting about sharing my workspace with my dogs. i'm in my black yoga pants, a pink tshirt and a snuggly black northface fleece…hardly corporate attire. so thankful for being able to work in comfort {or even my jammies… which i did yesterday until 3 pm} even if i'm not entirely grateful to work from home. i'm learning to celebrate the positives instead of dwelling on the negatives.
i'll have to hose off at some point… need to re-enter society later today. i have two of my girls speaking at our youth group tonite. so i'll gather with them beforehand over a meal and help them put their finishing touches on their 1 John talk. we're almost finished with our journey through the entire Bible. it's been an interesting and memorable pilgrimage through each book.
for now, however, i've got lists to make, work to do, portfolios to assemble {daunting task} and calls to make before i jump in the shower.
wednesday… here i come!